Hi deviantart!
I'm sad to say that I abandoned art. I've done a few pieces over the past few years but not as many as I wish. The real world has been so... busy. I left school for a while and worked full-time at a job I hate. (still there) I haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up and that was like... 5 years ago. So I need to be doing that soon. :sigh:
I will try to be a better artist. Well, I can't help the talent, but I will produce more and practice more. I'm promising myself!
So, hello again my friends. I hope you are all well.

so the last time i updated this thing was in 2005. how crazy is that?
i was looking at my stuff and deviants with whom i used to be friends, and i realized that regardless of our relationship status i will always love their work. thinking about lost friends and loves is rough and troubling for someone who hangs on to memories like i do. i miss the times we had, the laughs, the tears, the secrets shared. sometimes i wish things could go back to the way they were before, but the i remember the present and am happy and content, for the most part, in my life. if things hadn't changed would i still be happy now? i don't think i would be.
i was out of school this semester. it wasn't the smartest thing for me, but it made me think about what i want to do. i definitely like being in school better than real life. lol. but i want to do art. all the time. and working at my crappy dead end job i never have time to do anything. i have all of these art supplies and no time to use them. as well i have all these friends and no time to see them. is that what being an adult is? if so i want to be something/do something that has to do with art so that it is in my life. anyone else feel happy or like they can do anything when they're working on a piece?
anyway. this update was just supposed to be a short "hi again" entry but it turned into a thought-filled ball of nonsense.
i hope everyone is great, the work i've been looking at and catching up on it amazing (as usual) and i look forward to seeing more! who knows, maybe i'll do some of my own.

miss you guys.

so life is flip floppin' a lot lately... but whatever. I'm worried about something, I'm worried that I may have lost one of my best friends. I don't think she likes me anymore, and I don't think she cares that we never talk or see each other. I kinda feel that her real best friend got home so there's no need for me anymore. But blah.... that's me right now. If you want anymore updates go to my xanga site, there's stuff there.
p.s. MIke... email me ok? ok, good.

lol, hi kids!!!
Miss me much?
Yeah... I hear ya.
I checked this site and looked through 184 news pictures and such. I commented on some, don't hate me if I didn't though. I realized how much I miss this place and all of the beautiful things that I get to see from everyone. It's just been crazy here at school. With spring break then getting back and working like a crazy woman and then finals started.... oye. it's a little nutz.
I've kept my xanga site updated for the most part. So I'm gonna that addie on here and if you'd like to know what's been doin/what's new then you can check that out.
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Otherwise... I'll be home in J-town in 3 days, I'll update a lot then. Plus, I have a bunch of artworks to put on here that I think are pretty good, and 14x17. I just lack a digital camera. So maybe my putzie baby can help me out with that when i get home? pwease.. i love you. hehe

ok, so it's movie night in my sama's room...... lol, again. So I'm out!

Much love to all!!!!!!
Lemme know how you've been doin!


Rachel

Am I really such a horrible person?

Please no comments/answers to this one.... it's just the question on my mind.



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